Grocery shopping is twice as fun when I am with a friend? Why, well it gives me a chance to let someone else push the buggy (shopping cart if you don’t speak WVian) so I can walk around the store and take photo’s! Having a camera attached to my face is one of my quirks. Funny isn’t it, we all have our own special quirks. I think God gave them to us so we could travel through life and find people who let us be who we are without trying to change us, even though we have quirks.
In the produce section I was quite amazed with one of the biggest tomatoes I have ever seen. It’s funny how I can see a totally random object and think of something long ago. I call these tomatoes Heirloom tomatoes, but where I am from (WV) they are called Ugly tomatoes. They grow in a funny shape not all perfect and round like other tomatoes. They often have a deep purple hue to them, instead of the bright color red. I think they are beautiful. Before I had bariatric surgery one of my favorite meals was a loaf of Betsy Ross white bread, a couple of these tomatoes and a jar of Helmans Mayonaise with a salt shaker. I would fill up on “mater” sandwiches.
Isn’t it funny how life changes?
What is the point to all this jibber anyhow??
Well let me ask you.. Do the people in your life try to chance you to mold you into what they want you to be? Do you try to change them? OR, do you try too hard to be perfect to live up to someone elses expectations? When these things happen who is controlling who…?
I went through so many therapy sessions after my bariatric surgery. It was an eye opener as I discovered that most of my life has been lived dancing a co-depent dance. I had several dance partners. Relationships, food, exercise, shopping and alcohol.
Who leads this dance?
I can’t tell you how many times I said, FOOD has a hold on me. I would go on a diet and lose 100 pounds then gain 125. In my head, I can hear the words to a Dolly Parton song “Just When I though I could live without you, HERE YOU COME AGAIN’
Fact is: I made the choice to dance the codependence dance. I thought food and other addictions had a hold on me, but I was leading the dance. I chose my dance partners and my codependent relationships was the only thing I had control of.
Was I control?
What I discovered is, the control I thought I had was an illusion. I only thought food had a hold on me, I had an addition to food—–>relationships—–> shopping——> alcohol.
There I stood in awareness of this…now what?
So, I found the key to transforming my life, I am the key to self discovery and healing. The path to self discovery and healing is a road less taken.
You are the key to your self discovery…
If you were walking alone in a beautiful forrest and you came upon a key that would open whatever your heart desires…what would you to with the key?
Today, I am thankful for not only the successes and achievements in my life…I am also thankful for my struggles and my failures, they have made me who I AM!
Do you think others are ugly or heirlooms?
My life might look like an Ugly Tomato, but in my perspective…it’s an heirloom.
Light and Love