Today I got to do something I could have only dreamed about 8 years ago. I would have never been able to pull off this adventure when I weighed 385 pounds.
My oldest grandson loves for TT to take him to the Big Agua. Last year when I was in I took him to a place where the water runs off the mountain through a hose.
This year Zea is a little older and we just made an adventure out of the day. First, I strapped him in his car seat in my granma-mobile. (that in itself can be a NSV since my car is a 2 door)
Our first stop Pipestem State Park to the stable.
Zea loves horses, and I thought I would have to drag him away (ok so I did have to drag him away). He talked to this horse for the longest time. I guess there is no way to explain this, but I have a special bond with Zea. It’s not because he is my first born grandchild. It is like we are both old souls and we recognize that we have known each other “forever”.
Back in the car we sing our way to the next county. Summers county home of the Hinton Dairy Queen. Now, if you are from WV you immediately realize this place is famous. It’s known for its hotdogs and its view of the river.
Hamburger and fries for the little man, and a buster bar ice cream. I watch him eat at the table and I wonder how I got so lucky to have him as my grandson. I remember the day my youngest daughter called me to tell me her sister was pregnant. I was in the Boca Town Center Mall shopping. She said are you sitting down Ma? I expected the worst when she said that.. has something happened to Gran, or to my parents.
When she told me Megan was pregnant, I just stopped and was speechless. At the time Megan was 16, and I was not old enough to be a grandma. Don’t get me wrong, not once did I not want this grandbaby, but at the time Megan and I were not on good terms. She was still angry at me for leaving my marriage. She didn’t look at it as I was leaving her father, she still looked at it as I had left her. We hadn’t talked in awhile and my heart was grieving that. Now my prayer and hope would be that she could find a way to forgive me and allow me to be a part of this baby’s life.
Thank God, my prayer was answered.
I look into this little face and my heart just swells with gratitude. He was born 7 weeks prematurely, yet he weighed 7 pounds 7 ounces. It was an emergency C-section. Just two days before he was born I got a call from My Tia and she said I have someone who wants to talk to you and she handed Megan the phone. I can’t even begin to tell you how I felt that day. It was Megans Birthday March 15, 2008. She had questions about delivering a baby and wanted to talk to her mom. I must have cried a river.
Then, two days later I got the emergency call. I was in Panera Bread having dinner and Megan put the phone on speaker as I heard Dr. Tucker say the baby is in distress and we have to take you for emergency C-section now. Dr. Tucker went on to say there was a chance the baby might have brain damage due to lack oxygen.
I felt so alone, my family in WV and me in a Panera Bread in FL as a complete stranger handed me tissues while I waited for the call back.
As I look into this child’s eyes 3 years later I realize he is a rainbow, a bridge of hope. Him being born is what reunited his mother and I. And before long, the entire family would follow suit.
Back in the car for a short ride to the big water. Zea and I sat on the bank of the water for a good hour just talking. He has lots of questions for a 3 year old. His full name is Hayzea (pronounced Isiah) Rafael Gonzalez. Rafael is a good name for him, as he is an angel. Arch Angel Rafael is the angel of healing. It seems as though this baby has been the catalyst of a lot of healing in this family.