The First Day of School?
I admit things are somewhat different showing up as an adult for the first day of class but, in many ways it is still just like being 5 years old! Being 40 years old and finding myself without a job has sort of steered me to taking a different direction with my life path. My background is in nursing. I was a LPN from 1989 until 2006 when I decided to go in a different career direction and work in business, marketing and sales. That lasted until October 2010 and a series of events left me looking for employment, with no luck. I decided maybe it was time I look at a different career, and so here I am on my first day of massage Therapy School, and I plan to combine that with my holistic courses to make a whole new exciting career for myself.
What’s the big deal? Well, remember that I used to weigh 385 pounds. Remember that body image is a huge deal for us post ops? Such a big deal that in my lifetime I have only had 3 professional massages. One a gift from a former employer for working at the ASMBS event in Dallas. One from a friend as part of HER birthday celebration. One as a gift for myself when I went on a trip to the Mayan Villages in Mexico.So as you can see, I haven’t really pampered myself with massage that much.
I hadn’t really considered that I might have to take my clothes off and get massaged during classes. Lets just say I realized there would be clinicals but thank god I hadn’t really considered I would have to get undressed….the first day… LOL.
It was a AHA moment for me. Most of my life I denied myself massages because I was uncomfortable with my body. Things have changed and I threw my clothes off wrapped up in my towel, trotted down the hallway saying hello to all the students I saw, then back to the classroom where I jumped up on the table… I love massage, both giving and receiving.It was also an AHA moment to realize, I am really comfortable in my own skin these days.
Here are my thoughts though, now that I am going to be a massage therapist, I would like to ask you all some questions. Are you shy about getting a massage because of being uncomfortable with size, or loose skin? How could any discomforts be eased.
See, here is the deal, I have had eating disorders for most of my life. With those disorders came body dismorhpia. At times I was extremely thin and saw a fat person looking back, then at times I was extremely heavy and saw myself much thinner.
One thing I have discovered for sure…. The message the mirror gives is directly related to the thoughts the mind projects.
Whose voice do you hear when your mirror speaks? Is it the voice of your “head” or the voice of your “heart”?